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Monday, April 30, 2012

Made it through the weekend...

This weekend could have been a bit better in the eating department, but it could always have been worse!  We made it through my daughter's track meet.   Only items we bought were a snow cone, 4 bottles of water, and a super thin crepe with fresh strawberries on the inside and a bit of Nutella drizzled over the top.  My biggest struggles with eating are at home.  We do not live in a serene environment to say the least.

Today I wasn't feeling well when I woke up, but I decided to go to the gym anyway.  I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes and then spun "like a skinny girl" for a total of 75 minutes!  It is now the early afternoon and I am not sore which is nice!

My eating has been ok today, not perfect, but tracked everything and did well considering.  Tonight I will walk at my daughter's track practice to get some more activity in.  Tomorrow I will not be able to take a class at the gym in the morning, but I do plan to either treadmill or elliptical.  Molly does not have practice tomorrow night so I think I might try a kickboxing class at the gym...we'll see...

Friday, April 27, 2012

Weigh in...

I was up 3.4 pounds.  I am ok with that gain only because by Tuesday this week I was 5 pounds heavier than today's weight.  I worked super hard yesterday and Wednesday and that hard work did show on the scale even though I ultimately gained for the week.

Yesterday after a crazy class at the gym involving a ton of squats and puddles of sweat, I decided I had not had enough torture for the day.  At my daughter's track practice I decided to walk and go up and down the stairs in the bleachers for 1/2 hour.  As a result of all of my activity yesterday, my legs are feeling the fury today!  With every step, and every act of sitting down or getting up, I feel the effects of my hard work.  That feeling has made today successful when it came to eating.  I drank plenty of water, ate a ton of fruits and veggies, and only used 6 of my weeklies.

Tomorrow my daughter has another track meet.  It is only about 20 minutes away so it will be nice not to have to travel very far.  We will get there about 8am and not be done until the late afternoon.  I went grocery shopping today and will pack a ton of healthy snacks and lunch.  I want to be prepared for the long day and not be tempted by the nonsense at the snack shack.  Even though I can track on my phone, I think taking my paper tracker helps keep me on track even tomorrow I will take it, just as I did when I was out today!  As much as I love technology, I think I love writing things down on paper, with a pen even more...

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Still at it...

Today I spun like a skinny girl...I was amazing!  I love to body loves when I exercise.  My biggest problem is eating...some days I am so good, other days...not so much.  Someday I will find a livable balance between the two and reach my ultimate goal.  Until then, I will just keep at it!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Where have you gone?

Dear my former WW self,

You started your WW weight loss journey the end of February.  You were are on a losing streak until October when your mom joined.  Your journey was no longer your own, you had to work for your weight loss, as well as hers.  You tried your hardest, getting from the 70's to the 80's took a long time, but you did it!  By Christmas, you were at the lowest weight you have been in years,  I was so proud of you!  December & January brought many obstacles and struggles...a dog bite, your dad's stroke, daily visits to the hospital, and increased worry that you are still burdened with.  The focus you had before all of these things happened was remarkable...inspirational.

I am not sure where you have gone, but I need you back.  I need your focus, your drive, your determination, and your dedication to yourself and to Weight Watchers.  I am already half way to my goal, but I still have a long way to go to conquer the remaining half.  Please come back and help me make my way through the rest of my journey.

I know my current struggles will pass and I will get back on track.  What I need help with is staying on track.

Loving me along the weigh...enough not to give up...

What on earth!?!?

So yesterday started out pretty well, even though I never made it to the gym.  In the afternoon I don't know what happened, but I was having a carb attack...white bread, flour tortillas, and pasta were all present and all far too willing to jump right into my mouth!  We ended up having pizza for dinner since I had not planned anything.  I did not have too many pieces, but with everything else I ate throughout the day I was totally off track!

Today was very similar to yesterday.  My daughter stayed home from school again, no gym or exercise, I ate well in the morning and early afternoon, I drank plenty of water, and then I don't know what happened!  A little left over pizza, some fruit (good choice), and a flour tortilla with yogurt butter.  Not too bad except that was all before dinner.  Dinner in itself was not bad, but again...on top of everything else, it all adds up!  Dinner consisted of two flour tortillas, mozzarella cheese, and shredded chicken breast that I cooked all day in the crock pot with a can of red enchilada sauce. When my husband got home, I realized I had never gone to the grocery store.  On my way there I was satisfied from dinner but was contemplating buying Reese's Peanut Butter cups.  My previous losing WW self would buy candy, but only if I had enough pp to spend on them.  I made it through the grocery store, and by the time I got to the register I had convinced myself that I could have them another day when I have pp available...that was a good choice for sure...yeah me!  When I got home, my mom and daughter were having ice cream.  For about 30 seconds I was tempted to have some myself, but once again talked myself out of it.  I can have ice cream long as I have pp!

My daughter is 100% better and will be back to school tomorrow.  I will drop her off from school and head straight to the gym for a walk on the treadmill and some hard work in spin class.  I am going to plan all of tomorrow's meals tonight and "pack" lunch in containers so I am not tempted to change my mind, except for snacks, and see if that helps keep me on track!  I have got to do something to get past this nonsense!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Weigh In...

I wrote a post on Friday, and thought I published it...but it is no where to be found!?!?!  I was down 2.8 on happy for a loss, had hoped for a bit more with how hard I worked last week and how well I ate, but all in all I am happy!

It is now Monday afternoon.  Friday - Sunday were not the best eating days...Friday was super busy working on my daughter's birthday party stuff.  Saturday was a track meet about an hour away.  My daughter got 2 PR's (personal records), her first since she joined exciting!  Saturday afternoon and evening consisted of cleaning house and more party prep.  Sunday...lots of cooking, a fabulous party, and clean up.

This morning I was planning on going to spin class, but my daughter stayed home from school with a cold so I decided to take a rest day.  I have done pretty well eating today, although my body really needs some exercise.  She is feeling better so I think she should be able to go back to school tomorrow which will give me time to go to the gym.  Hopefully the rest of the day is quiet and restful... 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Still on track, almost to weigh in...

Well yesterday was SUPER busy!  I got to the gym and sat on the spin bike to make sure I could handle it and I was so excited that I was not sore...woo hoo!!!  Since I was there so early I decided to start spinning rather than get on the treadmill before class.  I ended up spinning for 20 minutes before class and then spinning 65 minutes during class.  It was such a hard workout, but I felt so good after...physically and mentally.  I ate really well yesterday even with a bit of unplanned madness.  I walked for 62 minutes at my daughter's track practice and when we got home my husband decided he wanted tacos for dinner.  He eats super late and I know it isn't good for him, but after 8 years, it is not worth discussing anymore.  Anyway...I was physically hungry by the time I was finished walking so I decided to use my last 4 weeklies on 2 mini pastor tacos.  They come with 2 tortillas on 1 taco so I took 1 off of each taco...this made the pp value for both tacos 4...exactly what I had to work with.

I still weigh myself every single day, I know I shouldn't but the harder I try not to, the more I think about it.    The scale had been going down steadily all week and then this morning I was up .5.  How does this happen when I did everything right yesterday including eating well, drinking water, and exercising twice in one day!?!?!  I was so mad and the first thought that came to mind was "I give up".  What I am working so hard for if the scale isn't going to show my efforts?  Those thoughts lasted about 30 seconds and then changed to "I am not going to give up!  I have worked far too hard this week!  I know what I did right and if the scale doesn't reflect my efforts then so be it!"  With this attitude I dropped the kids off at school and headed for the gym to take the step / weight class.  Just as we were about to start class my husband called.  He needed me to meet him at Urgent Care because he hurt his arm at work.  Being the good wife I am I put my step and weights away and left.  The girls at the gym were teasing me for leaving, but my husband does a lot and doesn't ask for much so when he asks I do my best to answer.  His arm will be ok, but needs to take it easy for a few weeks.

My son had a minimum day and I had planned to take him to Subway for lunch.  He decided he would rather eat Panda Express for lunch rather than dinner since he has a track meet today.  I ate string bean chicken, mushroom chicken, 1/5 of my chow mien, and 1 fortune pp...14.  I have 11 left for the rest of the day and still have one more trip to Panda Express for dinner.  I will probably just have chicken and veggies and for sure stay within my pp.  I am hoping that the extra salt will not show tomorrow.  I will drink a lot of water throughout the remainder of the day.  Still a ton of things to do so I am off to get my busy on!


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

4 Weeklies left...still...

It is Wednesday morning and I have not posted, not because I have nothing good to write about but because I have been so busy being good!  I have been the perfect WW so far this week.  Even though I ate more than I planned to over the weekend and did not exercise, I have still been 100% on plan!

Monday and yesterday were super charged WW days for sure!  Monday I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes, took a 70 minute spin class, and then walked at my daughter's practice for 80 minutes.  I drank plenty of water, ate well, and stayed within my daily pp target...yeah!  Yesterday I got to the gym too late to walk before class, but I did take a 60 minute weight / step class and a 60 minute yoga class.  The step "thing" is super slippery so I am going to bring some of my husband's no slip grip liner that he uses in his tool box drawers.  I have only been using the step in class sometimes and yesterday I decided because it slides so much I am afraid I am going to fall.  I love that class and I really want to be able to get the most out of it.  Yesterday's yoga / pilates class was the first one like that I had ever taken.  It was pretty hard, but I was really surprised how much I was able to do.  I will try it a few more times before I decide if I really like it or not.  I do not earn very many WW Activity pp doing it, but I know it is good for my body especially for flexibility and range of motion.  Yesterday I also drank a ton of water and actually had 1 pp left for the day.  I haven't used my remaining weeklies, or any of my earned activity pp, a complete change from the WW I have been for the past few months...yeah me!

Today I am going to try to take spin.  Usually my butt still hurts by Wednesday from the Monday class, but I think I am ok today...we'll see.  I will test it out before class to make sure.  My daughter has practice tonight so I should be able to get over an hour of walking in.  Since I weighed in on Saturday instead of Friday last week, I will weigh in one day early this week.  My home scale already shows a loss so I am really looking forward to Friday.  I only have two more days to go, I KNOW I can do it!  Tomorrow there is a fundraiser at Panda Express for my daughter's track team.  I already know what I am going to order so I am sure to stay within my pp for the day.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

4 Weeklies left...

Today was a pretty good day, kinda eaty especially since we were out of the house for quite a bit which I had not planned on.  I tracked EVERYTHING and still have 4 of my weeklies left.  Yesterday I had planned to use less of my weeklies over the weekend, but the most important thing is I did not eat mindlessly and I weighed and measured everything.

Tomorrow morning I will get back to the gym to walk and take a spin class.  I have not been there in two weeks, and I am ready to get back in the groove.  I NEED to keep on track this week and lose some poundage to get past the 70's and into the 80's so I can  move onto the 90's.  Since I only have 3 weigh ins until my birthday, I know I will not hit my 100 pound goal.  I have set that goal so many times that I think I need to change my goal to a smaller number.  I will try focusing on only 5 pounds at a time and see how that goes.  With that, my current goal is to make it back to 80 pounds...76 pounds down, 4 to go.  I have not weighed less than my current weight since high school.  I believe I can reach my weight loss goals, I just have to believe I deserve to.

Four days to go until weigh in...

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Weigh in...

Well...not fantastic, but could have been worse!  If I had weighed in last week, this week would have been a loss.  However, since I did not weigh in last week...I was up 3.2.  My total lost is now back down to 76 pounds.  I am so frustrated with myself that I have allowed some poundage to creep back, but I do not feel like I am totally out of control.  I am more or less maintaining...up a few, down a few, and so on.  Maintaining would be great if I were 80 pounds lighter than I am now, but since I am not, I need to get back to losing on a weekly basis.

Today I went to the combined Saturday meeting for the first time.  There were so many people there...quite a few familiar faces, but several that I have never seen.  I really miss our regular Saturday meeting group.  We are now at a new location which replaced two previous locations.  It is was it is and I will not let that change throw me off.

Today was a long day.  I know I am tired and if I had not needed to get up for WW, it would have been a great day to sleep in.  I will be sure to turn off the alarm tonight so we can sleep in a bit tomorrow.  I got quite a bit of scrapbooking done today.  Our Easter was not super exciting, but we had some good pictures...9 pages worth.  I wanted to eat so many times throughout the day when I was not even hungry.  I opted for water, gum, and some fruit here and there.  It is now the end of the day.  I tracked everything and only used 6 of my weeklies.  My husband was gone all day today helping a friend do some repairs to his new house.  He will be gone tomorrow as well.  I plan on staying home all day tomorrow, doing laundry, working on PTA and getting the final crafts ready for my daughter's birthday party next Sunday.  I will use my weeklies tomorrow if I need to, but I would rather save them to use throughout the week.  I think my problem lately has been that I use them all by Sunday and then continue to go over my daily pp throughout the week.  I really want to see that scale go down by Friday's meeting.  I did not get in any exercise today, but I still consider it to have been a pretty good day!

Friday, April 13, 2012

40 Day Challenge...lasted on a few days...

So the moment I decided to get serious and created a plan, plans changed and flew right out the window!  Last week was Spring Break for both of my kids.  My niece, nephew, and their room mate made a last minute trip to visit us from Utah at the beginning of the week.  They called to ask if they could come and showed up 12 hours later in the middle of the night.  I cooked, we ate, we crafted, played ping pong, made quilts, and had a great time.  They were here for only 1 1/2 days...not nearly long enough, but we definitely made the best of that short time!  Thursday of last week was my daughter's birthday.  We went to lunch and had a nice day which ended with track practice, 51 mini cupcakes, and the Happy Birthday song in the middle of the track.  The next day was weigh in, but I opted to take the day off from WW, since I had pretty much taken the week off anyway.  The weekend was busy with a track meet, hours of volunteering, and getting the kids ready to go back to school.

This week I was not feeling well and the only exercise I got was a 93 minute walk at my daughter's track practice last night.  I felt so good during and after...I have decided my body really LOVES exercise!  This week I tracked half-heartedly.  There is no track meet tomorrow so I did not go to WW this morning and will go tomorrow instead.  I am so excited to see all of my WW peeps!  I love our leader who also leads my new group, but being with the same group for over a year has made the change to a new group hard.  Once my daughter is done with track for the season, I will be back to my regular meetings for sure!

I know I will be up tomorrow from my last weigh in a few weeks ago.  If I had gone last week, this week would show a loss for sure.  It will all even out and I will get that scale going down.  I know tomorrow is going to give me a push start in the right direction...even though I still keep in touch with my regular meeting peeps on is just not the same not going to the same meeting.  They are fun, lively, loud, and rowdy, and I love them all!!

Since my daily routine seems to change on a consistent basis, it has been hard to get into a good groove.  I will continue to do my best with whatever changes and obstacles come my way, but really need to focus on not letting myself fall of my to do list!  I also need to make posting a priority...even if no one else ever reads my blog...I want to have something I can look back on.  I have come so far, and it is far too easy to focus on how far I still have to go rather then remember where I started from.

I'll be back tomorrow with my weigh in...