This morning I was up one pound from yesterday...I honestly thought it was going to be much more. I am happy it wasn't. I am hopeful it doesn't catch up tomorrow. Yesterday I did earn 7pp and reached 121% on my ActiveLink...maybe that helped my cause a bit?
I started the day with my usual 1 egg and egg white scramble topped with ketchup. I had 1/2 piece of toast instead of a whole slice since my daughter only wanted a 1/2. After breakfast I fille up my dad's pill box for the week, cleared off the kitchen table, made my to do list for the day, put out some donation bags, cleaned off the front shelf, made my daughter's lunch, and we were on our way. She was still not 100%, but I am going to school to help this afternoon so she would feel better. I dropped her off at school and took my walk. I was back to my faster pace and felt really good before, during, and after.
Once I finished my walk I ran into the grocery for a few things. As I was walking to my car I realized I forgot something so I walked those groceries to the car and ran back into the store. I got home, put away the groceries, created a last minute chart in Excel for my son, took him to school, and came back home. Once home I cut up some bananas to freeze for "banana soft-serve" to be enjoyed after dinner. It is now 10am and I must get started on the rest of my to do's as I only have a few hours until I leave for my daughter's school. With as busy as I am you'd think I'd just be skinny by default!?!?
I have no where to go today except to pick my kids up from school. I have a very busy schedule and hope that will help me stay out of the kitchen. So much to do...off I go!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Day 74...What the heck was I thinking!?!?
I was so tired when I woke up this morning. I didn't even think about not going on my walk, I simply put on my clothes and shoes and did it. I was 13 minutes slower than normal. It usually only takes me 50 minutes to walk a hilly 3 miles...today...63. Usually I feel better once I start working and really good once I am finished. Today I still felt tired.
My daughter stayed home again today since she was coughing all night. She is feeling much better so I am hoping she gets a good night's sleep and is raring to go back to school in the morning. She loves school and hates to miss so I know she is really not feeling well when she doesn't want to go. She stayed with my mom while I took my son to school and went for my walk. I am lucky to have my mom and thankful she and my kids are so close.
After my walk I had to take my mom to the chiropractor. My daughter took her blanket, pillow, and bunny. We layed in the car and I read to her while my mom was doing her thing...it takes her a little over an hour each time. My daughter and I ate peaches before we left the house but were still hungry. I drove up and down the street looking and thinking where to go...What would be a good food choice? Where could I drive-thru so my daughter wouldn't have to get out her car in her jammies? We ended up at Carl's Jr...bad decision. I had no idea what to order and ended up getting some chicken pieces, hashbrowns, and a Western Bacon Cheeseburger...What the heck was I thinking!?!? I don't drive-thru often and this is was I chose!?!?
We drove back and sat in the car for our snack and to read. My daughter ate a bit and was good. I picked my burger apart and ended up eating less than half. I also had a few hashbrowns and a piece of chicken with ranch. Did I need any of it? No. Did I enjoy any of it? Yes. It all tasted especially good...why? Not sure...Maybe because I was tired. Maybe because I have not eaten that kind of food at Carls Jr. in a very long time. Maybe because "bad" food just tastes good.
After we picked my mom up, we came home, I made my mom lunch, and I was off to the valley to pick up her friend's medicine. I honestly don't understand why her own dumb daughter, or her daughter's dumb husband couldn't do it since they live with her and it would save me 60 miles of driving and hours of my time! On the way back to her house I passed another Carl's Jr. The taste of the chicken earlier gave me the dumb idea to stop and have the same chicken in the form of a sandwich. I ate the whole thing and it was delicious...I did not order any fries so that was a plus, but I did not look up or track the pp either.
The trip was stressful especially since my mom's friend tried to "reserve" all of my Thursdays for the rest of forever which would mean a total of 120 miles (2 round trips in one day) and many hours of my time each week. I honestly already have enough to do and I shouldn't feel obiligated to add more. I told her I could not commit to every Thursday and we would just have to take it as it comes.
On my way home I ate a bag of Baked Doritos and 2 Reeses Peanut Butter Cups...yes, they were delicious. When I got home my mom's response to her friend's request was "Well, you can't stop taking me places!" Yes mom, I know. I ended up eating a bit of ice cream, some cream cheese with jelly, and a spoonful of peanut butter. Then I was done. My random eats of this and that throughout the day finally caught up to me and I was done eating. A few hours later I made dinner. Store bought thin crust cheese pizza which I added toppings to...mini pepperoni slices, back olives, canadian bacon, green peppers, and red onion. I did not add any additional cheese and once they were cooked I was glad I didn't because there was plenty. I am a super multi-tasker, however I was doing the dishes when the time went off to take the pizza out of the oven. I let it go another minute...or two? The bottom 2 pizzas were a bit burnt on one side. Luckily the top 2 pizzas were perfect. I dished everyone up and had two small slices...which came out to 8pp for both. Not bad, except for all of the other nonsense I ate throughout the day!
What is done is done. Moving on...
My daughter stayed home again today since she was coughing all night. She is feeling much better so I am hoping she gets a good night's sleep and is raring to go back to school in the morning. She loves school and hates to miss so I know she is really not feeling well when she doesn't want to go. She stayed with my mom while I took my son to school and went for my walk. I am lucky to have my mom and thankful she and my kids are so close.
After my walk I had to take my mom to the chiropractor. My daughter took her blanket, pillow, and bunny. We layed in the car and I read to her while my mom was doing her thing...it takes her a little over an hour each time. My daughter and I ate peaches before we left the house but were still hungry. I drove up and down the street looking and thinking where to go...What would be a good food choice? Where could I drive-thru so my daughter wouldn't have to get out her car in her jammies? We ended up at Carl's Jr...bad decision. I had no idea what to order and ended up getting some chicken pieces, hashbrowns, and a Western Bacon Cheeseburger...What the heck was I thinking!?!? I don't drive-thru often and this is was I chose!?!?
We drove back and sat in the car for our snack and to read. My daughter ate a bit and was good. I picked my burger apart and ended up eating less than half. I also had a few hashbrowns and a piece of chicken with ranch. Did I need any of it? No. Did I enjoy any of it? Yes. It all tasted especially good...why? Not sure...Maybe because I was tired. Maybe because I have not eaten that kind of food at Carls Jr. in a very long time. Maybe because "bad" food just tastes good.
After we picked my mom up, we came home, I made my mom lunch, and I was off to the valley to pick up her friend's medicine. I honestly don't understand why her own dumb daughter, or her daughter's dumb husband couldn't do it since they live with her and it would save me 60 miles of driving and hours of my time! On the way back to her house I passed another Carl's Jr. The taste of the chicken earlier gave me the dumb idea to stop and have the same chicken in the form of a sandwich. I ate the whole thing and it was delicious...I did not order any fries so that was a plus, but I did not look up or track the pp either.
The trip was stressful especially since my mom's friend tried to "reserve" all of my Thursdays for the rest of forever which would mean a total of 120 miles (2 round trips in one day) and many hours of my time each week. I honestly already have enough to do and I shouldn't feel obiligated to add more. I told her I could not commit to every Thursday and we would just have to take it as it comes.
On my way home I ate a bag of Baked Doritos and 2 Reeses Peanut Butter Cups...yes, they were delicious. When I got home my mom's response to her friend's request was "Well, you can't stop taking me places!" Yes mom, I know. I ended up eating a bit of ice cream, some cream cheese with jelly, and a spoonful of peanut butter. Then I was done. My random eats of this and that throughout the day finally caught up to me and I was done eating. A few hours later I made dinner. Store bought thin crust cheese pizza which I added toppings to...mini pepperoni slices, back olives, canadian bacon, green peppers, and red onion. I did not add any additional cheese and once they were cooked I was glad I didn't because there was plenty. I am a super multi-tasker, however I was doing the dishes when the time went off to take the pizza out of the oven. I let it go another minute...or two? The bottom 2 pizzas were a bit burnt on one side. Luckily the top 2 pizzas were perfect. I dished everyone up and had two small slices...which came out to 8pp for both. Not bad, except for all of the other nonsense I ate throughout the day!
What is done is done. Moving on...
Monday, November 5, 2012
Day 73...Still feeling in control...
My daughter was still a bit coughy and boogery this morning so I kept her home from school. It is now 3pm and she is much better...she will be able to go back to school tomorrow for sure.
I dropped my son off at school, went for my 3 mile hilly walk, stopped at the store to change some Redbox movies, and came home to be with my girl. We had to take my mom to the gym to swim, came home for an hour, went to pick her up, came home for lunch, and I have been taking care of stuff in my desk since.
I just picked my son up from school and came home to my dad yelling about how my husband doesn't know how to d anything because he didn't "correctly" stack something in the garage. First of all my husband is very handy, smart, and willing...he helps my parents all the time and all my dad can do is *h!t on him. I get so frustrated. I told him what we need to do is go through stuff he hasn't touched in years and decide what to use, donate, or trash. He then asked if I wanted him to move out. He couldn't even if he wanted to. He is so far from reality he wouldn't know where to start to move, find somewhere to live, or be able to manage on his own. My response was I would like to move out but I can't because I need to take care of him and my mom. He then told me he could take care of her...he hasn't taken care of her, or himself, in years. Rather than staying in the kitchen to fight with him, I walked out and sat in the bathroom. If I were to have gone to my room, he would have seen me and continued the fight. After he went back to his room I finished making my son's snack and came back to the computer. I didn't eat anything out of frustration or anger...a plus, I guess.
We are having a 16th birthday party for my son on the 17th of this month. Two of my five siblings live locally and are coming...sometimes it pisses me that they will come to our parties but won't visit or call otherwise. Everything falls on me and I am tired. I am the youngest...my youngest brother is 13 years older than me and me oldest is 19 years older. They all figure since I live here I should be the only one to deal with my parents...they think I am living the good life...not working, not paying rent...I don't have time to work, my husband doesn't make enough to pay rent, my parents have a reverse mortgage so they don't pay "rent" either, and if we had to pay someone for all my husband and I do they would be bankrupt. My reality couldn't be further from what my siblings think it is. They also assume I will get the house when my parents are gone however, there is no house to "get". It is technically upside down, but because they have the reverse mortgage are able to live here as long as 1 of the 2 is living in the house.
I could just scream!!!! I will not let him get to me today. I will continue to work on what I am doing, cook and eat dinner as planned, and end the day well.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 73...Will be a success, dang it!!!
I dropped my son off at school, went for my 3 mile hilly walk, stopped at the store to change some Redbox movies, and came home to be with my girl. We had to take my mom to the gym to swim, came home for an hour, went to pick her up, came home for lunch, and I have been taking care of stuff in my desk since.
I just picked my son up from school and came home to my dad yelling about how my husband doesn't know how to d anything because he didn't "correctly" stack something in the garage. First of all my husband is very handy, smart, and willing...he helps my parents all the time and all my dad can do is *h!t on him. I get so frustrated. I told him what we need to do is go through stuff he hasn't touched in years and decide what to use, donate, or trash. He then asked if I wanted him to move out. He couldn't even if he wanted to. He is so far from reality he wouldn't know where to start to move, find somewhere to live, or be able to manage on his own. My response was I would like to move out but I can't because I need to take care of him and my mom. He then told me he could take care of her...he hasn't taken care of her, or himself, in years. Rather than staying in the kitchen to fight with him, I walked out and sat in the bathroom. If I were to have gone to my room, he would have seen me and continued the fight. After he went back to his room I finished making my son's snack and came back to the computer. I didn't eat anything out of frustration or anger...a plus, I guess.
We are having a 16th birthday party for my son on the 17th of this month. Two of my five siblings live locally and are coming...sometimes it pisses me that they will come to our parties but won't visit or call otherwise. Everything falls on me and I am tired. I am the youngest...my youngest brother is 13 years older than me and me oldest is 19 years older. They all figure since I live here I should be the only one to deal with my parents...they think I am living the good life...not working, not paying rent...I don't have time to work, my husband doesn't make enough to pay rent, my parents have a reverse mortgage so they don't pay "rent" either, and if we had to pay someone for all my husband and I do they would be bankrupt. My reality couldn't be further from what my siblings think it is. They also assume I will get the house when my parents are gone however, there is no house to "get". It is technically upside down, but because they have the reverse mortgage are able to live here as long as 1 of the 2 is living in the house.
I could just scream!!!! I will not let him get to me today. I will continue to work on what I am doing, cook and eat dinner as planned, and end the day well.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 73...Will be a success, dang it!!!
Day 72...Unexpected Guest...
Sunday started off well. I got up early, took a shower, and had a small breakfast. My hubby took me, and my trike, to the bike trail and I rode 6 miles. The weather was perfect, my music was good, and all was well. I really love riding my bike and will be so excited once we figure on a trailer or something so I can take it to the bike trail myself.
Late Saturday night my husband told me his mom was coming for the day (Sunday) and staying the night. Her visits are always high speed in terms of cooking and talking. My daughter was not feeling well and I had planned to have a quiet day, but she insisted on coming anyway.
Around 10am my daughter and I went to pick my mom up from church and came home to my husband and mother-in-law's arrival.
She asked what we were cooking...I told her nothing.
She asked where we were going...I told her no where.
Why couldn't she see my daughter didn't feel well and needed her mommy?!
Ugh.
Shortly after she decided she needed to go to Wal-Mart...she insisted I go...I told her no.
My husband decided he would take her and give me, and my daughter, and break...thanks, husband! He really is a great guy!
Shortly after they left my husband called to tell me they were also going to the swapmeet...good!
In the background my mother-in-law asked if I wanted to go...I told her no.
They were gone for hours and hours. My daughter and I watched movies as I flipped through cookbooks planning the menu for my son's 16th birthday party which he finally decided he wanted to have.
When they got home, she was ready to cook. I had already planned dinner and decided I would continue to stand my ground and cook it myself. Sometimes her insistence is too much, and I like to cook alone especially since our kitchen is not very big.
I made Milanesa (thin pieces of beef breaded and fried in very little oil), I heated up some beans she had made and we froze last time she was here. I also whipped up some creamy guacamole and grilled some small rolls with yogurt butter and Lipton's Onion Soup Mix. It is very difficult to determine the pp for the Milanesa so instead of guessing or not tracking at all like I often do when I make it, I cooked up some chicken breast chunks and didn't even have 1 bite of Milanesa...woo hoo.
The day was kind of eaty, thinking about my mother-in-law and anticipating her return, but I did track everything and did not feel bad about my choices by the end of the day...a first for me in a long time when she is here!
I used 30 of my weeklies which left me with 18. I earned 7pp and reached 125% on my ActiveLink, and I am proud of my food, movement, and dealing with a an unplanned visit from the Suegra (mother-in-law)!
Day 72...Success!
Late Saturday night my husband told me his mom was coming for the day (Sunday) and staying the night. Her visits are always high speed in terms of cooking and talking. My daughter was not feeling well and I had planned to have a quiet day, but she insisted on coming anyway.
Around 10am my daughter and I went to pick my mom up from church and came home to my husband and mother-in-law's arrival.
She asked what we were cooking...I told her nothing.
She asked where we were going...I told her no where.
Why couldn't she see my daughter didn't feel well and needed her mommy?!
Ugh.
Shortly after she decided she needed to go to Wal-Mart...she insisted I go...I told her no.
My husband decided he would take her and give me, and my daughter, and break...thanks, husband! He really is a great guy!
Shortly after they left my husband called to tell me they were also going to the swapmeet...good!
In the background my mother-in-law asked if I wanted to go...I told her no.
They were gone for hours and hours. My daughter and I watched movies as I flipped through cookbooks planning the menu for my son's 16th birthday party which he finally decided he wanted to have.
When they got home, she was ready to cook. I had already planned dinner and decided I would continue to stand my ground and cook it myself. Sometimes her insistence is too much, and I like to cook alone especially since our kitchen is not very big.
I made Milanesa (thin pieces of beef breaded and fried in very little oil), I heated up some beans she had made and we froze last time she was here. I also whipped up some creamy guacamole and grilled some small rolls with yogurt butter and Lipton's Onion Soup Mix. It is very difficult to determine the pp for the Milanesa so instead of guessing or not tracking at all like I often do when I make it, I cooked up some chicken breast chunks and didn't even have 1 bite of Milanesa...woo hoo.
The day was kind of eaty, thinking about my mother-in-law and anticipating her return, but I did track everything and did not feel bad about my choices by the end of the day...a first for me in a long time when she is here!
I used 30 of my weeklies which left me with 18. I earned 7pp and reached 125% on my ActiveLink, and I am proud of my food, movement, and dealing with a an unplanned visit from the Suegra (mother-in-law)!
Day 72...Success!
Day 71...Weigh In...
Much better day than the last. Surprised , and thankful, the scale at home was down 5 pounds from the day before...how does that even work!?!?! I think my body must have needed the rest, hours spent in bed, and maybe I cried out some water weight too!?!
I was down .2 at weigh in. In the past I would have thought..."only .2?"...but at this point I am looking for maintaining, losing, or gaining as little as possible each week. My total lost is now 67.8.
I almost didn't go to the meeting because I was still not feeling 100%. I got up and went anyway. I am glad I did. I did not park far away or walk, but I went.
After the meeting I ran errands...for hours and hours. I went to sprouts and bought a huge, sweet, melon, a banana, and a magazine. I rarely buy magazines, so it was a good day to do so.
I had my banana and water for pre-breakfast as all of the eating out options seemed too "pointy" and I was determined not to blow all of my weeklies on the weekend.
I ended up going to Target to pick up a few things and opted for 1/2 bag of popcorn for breakfast...not the healthiest choice, but it satisfied me, I tracked it, and for only 4pp it was much more pp friendly than several of the other choices swimming in my head and lurking in the streets.
Throughout the day I went to Wal-Mart, Sam's, Food 4 Less, Ralph's, took my mom to the gym to swim, and then took her to get a manicure and pedicure. I did have some fresh pineapple somewhere in the mix, but I needed something of substance. The last stop was the nail shop...the wait was supposed to be 10 minutes but ended up being 35. Since my daughter had a stuffy nose we sat outside of the shop in the car. Unfortunately we were sitting right in front of Little Caesars Pizza. The smell was intoxicating...especially since I was physical hungry and in my mind...starving! I pondered what we could get as a lunch appetizer...bread sticks, chicken wings, cheesy bread, pizza...they all sounded so good but too many pp and I want to set good examples for my daughter. We stuck it out for 35 MINUTES ~ yeah us!!! By the time we were home it was 1:30pm and I was beyond starving. As soon as we got home I quickly put away all of the cold groceries and started on lunch. I served my mom, daughter, and son first, and did not even take one bite in the process. I weighed my chicken and tracked 100%...so proud of myself.
The rest of the day was super busy and productive.
I ended the day using only 1 of my weekly pp ~ another woo hoo for me!
I earned 10pp and reached 152% even without my morning walk.
Day 71...Success!!
I was down .2 at weigh in. In the past I would have thought..."only .2?"...but at this point I am looking for maintaining, losing, or gaining as little as possible each week. My total lost is now 67.8.
I almost didn't go to the meeting because I was still not feeling 100%. I got up and went anyway. I am glad I did. I did not park far away or walk, but I went.
After the meeting I ran errands...for hours and hours. I went to sprouts and bought a huge, sweet, melon, a banana, and a magazine. I rarely buy magazines, so it was a good day to do so.
I had my banana and water for pre-breakfast as all of the eating out options seemed too "pointy" and I was determined not to blow all of my weeklies on the weekend.
I ended up going to Target to pick up a few things and opted for 1/2 bag of popcorn for breakfast...not the healthiest choice, but it satisfied me, I tracked it, and for only 4pp it was much more pp friendly than several of the other choices swimming in my head and lurking in the streets.
Throughout the day I went to Wal-Mart, Sam's, Food 4 Less, Ralph's, took my mom to the gym to swim, and then took her to get a manicure and pedicure. I did have some fresh pineapple somewhere in the mix, but I needed something of substance. The last stop was the nail shop...the wait was supposed to be 10 minutes but ended up being 35. Since my daughter had a stuffy nose we sat outside of the shop in the car. Unfortunately we were sitting right in front of Little Caesars Pizza. The smell was intoxicating...especially since I was physical hungry and in my mind...starving! I pondered what we could get as a lunch appetizer...bread sticks, chicken wings, cheesy bread, pizza...they all sounded so good but too many pp and I want to set good examples for my daughter. We stuck it out for 35 MINUTES ~ yeah us!!! By the time we were home it was 1:30pm and I was beyond starving. As soon as we got home I quickly put away all of the cold groceries and started on lunch. I served my mom, daughter, and son first, and did not even take one bite in the process. I weighed my chicken and tracked 100%...so proud of myself.
The rest of the day was super busy and productive.
I ended the day using only 1 of my weekly pp ~ another woo hoo for me!
I earned 10pp and reached 152% even without my morning walk.
Day 71...Success!!
Day 70...A rough day...
Friday was miserable...I was overtired, frustrated, and beyond my limit.
I took the kids to school, skipped my walk, took my mom to the chiropractor, came home and went to bed. It was a long tearful day. I managed to cook lunch for my mom and I, picked the kids up from school, went back to bed, made dinner, did the dishes, and went back to bed again.
ActiveLink...0pp earned, reached 52%.
Eating...100% on plan in spite of how I was feeling.
Glad that day is now in the past.
I took the kids to school, skipped my walk, took my mom to the chiropractor, came home and went to bed. It was a long tearful day. I managed to cook lunch for my mom and I, picked the kids up from school, went back to bed, made dinner, did the dishes, and went back to bed again.
ActiveLink...0pp earned, reached 52%.
Eating...100% on plan in spite of how I was feeling.
Glad that day is now in the past.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Days 68 & 69...More of the same...
I feel like I am just spinning my wheels...like I am in a boat with one oar. I can move forward a bit, just to end up turning in circles and ending up right back where I started.
Yesterday was the first day of November...I didn't even notice. I have been so busy and on the go so much that I don't even know what day or month it is!
When I rejoined WW in August I started to keep a calendatr on my desk that I made notes on to include my daily weight, misc comments, activity, and yeah or neigh for eats. By tomorrow's weigh in I will be not very far from where I started back in August when I was so determined to get the scale moving in the right direction on a consistant basis.
I know that I cannot change my environment, so I must change how I look at it and deal with it. In last week's meeting our leader mentioned WW coming out with behavior modification strategies in the New Year. I certainly do not want to wait until then to make changes, but I am looking forward to some additional insight for sure.
I am up 2 pounds this morning from yesterday. I started the day well with a good, low pp, breakfast and a 3 mile walk. Last year one of my fellow WW let me go through a mountain of clothes she had shrunk out of. I ended up bring home 2 huge black trashbags full. That was in December of last year. I was able to fit into some, but some were too small and I had hopes of fitting in them. I finally went through them yesterday. My mom and I spent 3 hours looking through them. I ended up with a black dress, a long sleeved shirt, and two light weight black "jackets" that I can wear with my sleeveless dresses. I decided that hanging to so many clothes that are no going to fit soon is defeating. My mom found many shirts, some shirts, and a few pants she liked. It was quite a workout for her to try on so many clothes since she is hunched over, crooked, and does not have very good balance...but she did it!
I know many of her health issues were brought on, or enhanced, by the stresses caused by my dad. I hope she has some years of freedom from him before her time is up. I refuse to let him do to me what he has done to her. Since my family and I moved in with my parents in 2008, it has been a daily struggle, mostly because of my dad. 2012 has been even more of a struggle and challenge as it started with his stroke and then midway through my mom stopped driving. Even more stress and responsibility has fallen upon my shoulders and it is taking its toll on my body, mind, and spirit. Thankfully I have a great husband and fantastic kids...although my son knows how to push my tired buttons like no other.
I did well eating yesterday until my daughter came home from school...I snacked, snacked, and snacked some more...then by the time dinner came around I was in that mode and did not weigh or measure anything I ate. I was in the mood for the chicken and pasta but not the veggies. Before dinner the kids and I took my daughter's Halloween candy to the dentist...in exchange we received a gift card to Menchies. We got our frozen yogurt and brought some to my mom. After dinner she was still asking for dessert. When I was young we rarely had dessert...now my mom and dad want it every night. Most nights I can just serve it up and not think twice about eating it...then there are nights when I want to eat it...too much of it. I feel like they have never supported my weight loss efforts and probably never will. My mom did comment yesterday that she thought I would rejoin WW, lose a bunch of weight fast and be "slimmed down" by now. When I mentioned all of the extra snacks, desserts, and stress in the house her response was "we all like to eat it and are not on WW". She could lose 50 pounds but decided she doesn't want to which is fine...but hindering my progress and then wondering why I haven't lost more weight doesn't help me any.
Well enough of that nonsense...today I will do my best to stay within my dailies. I did not go for my morning walk because I have too many things to do. I know I will regret it later, but I also know I will make it to 100% on my ActiveLink with everything else I have to do. Yesterday I earned 8pp and reached 131%...would be fabulous if I hadn't eaten all of them...and then some!
Days 68 & 69...Activity ok...Food fail.
Onto Day 70...
I've got to find a way to fit everything into each day, as well as enough rest and sleep so I can make better food choices when I am tired and frustrated and so my body can let go of this extra weight. Somedays I get discouraged when I have done everything right...food, water, and exercise, and the scale still doesn't move. I know being overtired, exhausted, doesn't help any so I will have to find a way to get past that.
Yesterday was the first day of November...I didn't even notice. I have been so busy and on the go so much that I don't even know what day or month it is!
When I rejoined WW in August I started to keep a calendatr on my desk that I made notes on to include my daily weight, misc comments, activity, and yeah or neigh for eats. By tomorrow's weigh in I will be not very far from where I started back in August when I was so determined to get the scale moving in the right direction on a consistant basis.
I know that I cannot change my environment, so I must change how I look at it and deal with it. In last week's meeting our leader mentioned WW coming out with behavior modification strategies in the New Year. I certainly do not want to wait until then to make changes, but I am looking forward to some additional insight for sure.
I am up 2 pounds this morning from yesterday. I started the day well with a good, low pp, breakfast and a 3 mile walk. Last year one of my fellow WW let me go through a mountain of clothes she had shrunk out of. I ended up bring home 2 huge black trashbags full. That was in December of last year. I was able to fit into some, but some were too small and I had hopes of fitting in them. I finally went through them yesterday. My mom and I spent 3 hours looking through them. I ended up with a black dress, a long sleeved shirt, and two light weight black "jackets" that I can wear with my sleeveless dresses. I decided that hanging to so many clothes that are no going to fit soon is defeating. My mom found many shirts, some shirts, and a few pants she liked. It was quite a workout for her to try on so many clothes since she is hunched over, crooked, and does not have very good balance...but she did it!
I know many of her health issues were brought on, or enhanced, by the stresses caused by my dad. I hope she has some years of freedom from him before her time is up. I refuse to let him do to me what he has done to her. Since my family and I moved in with my parents in 2008, it has been a daily struggle, mostly because of my dad. 2012 has been even more of a struggle and challenge as it started with his stroke and then midway through my mom stopped driving. Even more stress and responsibility has fallen upon my shoulders and it is taking its toll on my body, mind, and spirit. Thankfully I have a great husband and fantastic kids...although my son knows how to push my tired buttons like no other.
I did well eating yesterday until my daughter came home from school...I snacked, snacked, and snacked some more...then by the time dinner came around I was in that mode and did not weigh or measure anything I ate. I was in the mood for the chicken and pasta but not the veggies. Before dinner the kids and I took my daughter's Halloween candy to the dentist...in exchange we received a gift card to Menchies. We got our frozen yogurt and brought some to my mom. After dinner she was still asking for dessert. When I was young we rarely had dessert...now my mom and dad want it every night. Most nights I can just serve it up and not think twice about eating it...then there are nights when I want to eat it...too much of it. I feel like they have never supported my weight loss efforts and probably never will. My mom did comment yesterday that she thought I would rejoin WW, lose a bunch of weight fast and be "slimmed down" by now. When I mentioned all of the extra snacks, desserts, and stress in the house her response was "we all like to eat it and are not on WW". She could lose 50 pounds but decided she doesn't want to which is fine...but hindering my progress and then wondering why I haven't lost more weight doesn't help me any.
Well enough of that nonsense...today I will do my best to stay within my dailies. I did not go for my morning walk because I have too many things to do. I know I will regret it later, but I also know I will make it to 100% on my ActiveLink with everything else I have to do. Yesterday I earned 8pp and reached 131%...would be fabulous if I hadn't eaten all of them...and then some!
Days 68 & 69...Activity ok...Food fail.
Onto Day 70...
I've got to find a way to fit everything into each day, as well as enough rest and sleep so I can make better food choices when I am tired and frustrated and so my body can let go of this extra weight. Somedays I get discouraged when I have done everything right...food, water, and exercise, and the scale still doesn't move. I know being overtired, exhausted, doesn't help any so I will have to find a way to get past that.
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