Day 37...Welcome October...

Today was another long day.  I think I have had more than enough of the heat summer brings and I will feel better once cooler weather comes...and stays!  Today was well over 100 and even at the mall it was too warm for me...especially for being in doors.

It is 8pm and I have earned 2pp for the day and reached 90%.  I have plenty of laundry to fold and put away so I am sure I will make it to 100% before bed.  Last night I made it to 88% and earned 2pp for the day.

Tomorrow my son, daughter, mom, and I are going to the beach.  This will probably be the last trip to the beach this year.  I wish we lived closer to the ocean...there is just something about the salt air and sound of the waves that always calms my soul.

I used up the rest of my weeklies today and consumed about 10pp over.  Tomorrow I am not going to be super strict, but not get out of control either.  It is usually easier for me to eat well when I am not home...sometimes when I am home I just seem to gravitate towards food...just because.  It is worse in this house than it was when I had my own house.  I know alot of it has to do with the environment and stress here as well as all of the memories within this house as it is the house I grew up in.

Tomorrow is a new day and should be good.  I am so happy my son decided to go with us.  He is 15 and so many times he would rather stay home and play his video games with his buddies than go out with his mom and sister.  At least when he is home I know where he is, what he is doing, and he is still communicating with his friends rather than sitting in his room alone. 

Day 30...Not quite a success, but could have been worse.  I have to keep reminding myself...I am far from my ultimate goal, but also far from where I started.  It may take me longer than I want to reach my ultimate goal, but the important thing is that I never give up!

Onto Day 31...

Day 36...Weigh in...

Today was another good meeting topic...discussing what kind of weight loss could be achieved from now until Thanksgiving, only 8 short weeks away!  I am up for the challenge, and gave myself a goal to lose at least 8 pounds by then, which should be doable since it is only an average of 1 pound for week...as long as I do not have any major gains, I should be able to reachm if not exceed, this goal.

The scale was good to me this week...down 2.8 for a total loss of 65.8 pounds.  I chose to celebrate 65 pounds today...made me happy and sad in the same moment...happy because I had a good loss...sad because I have already lost these pounds.  It is what it is and it is up to me to carry on.

Today was busy, as usual...lots of time in and out of the car and in and out of the house...made for an eaty day, but I tracked it all and still have 14 weeklies left.  I did have some milk with dinner that I did not track.  I rarely drink anything with pp and decided since it was skim milk, it is good me, and I did not drink a ton, I am going to gift it to myself and hold on to my remaining 14 in hopes of staying on track all week.

I have earned 2pp and reached 82% on my ActiveLink...might make it to 100%, might not...my arm is still no bueno.  I did get in a lot of walking today...tomorrow is another day...

Day 36...Success!

Onto Day 37...

Day 35...

Last night I made it to 103% and earned 4pp.  Today I made it to 108% and earned 4pp. 

For the week I have exceeded my pp by 8 meaning I used all of my dailies, weeklies, and my activity pp earned.  I am still considering this week a sucess because I made many more good choices than bad ones!  I also stopped myself before following through with old habits several times...much better to catch myself before than during, or even worse...after.

I am exhausted and off to bed at 8:30pm.  My arm is still bothering me and I am hoping sleep will help it!

I am ready for tomorrow's weigh in and expecting a good loss.

Day 35...Super success!

Onto Day 36...

Days 33 & 34...

Yesterday was a long day.  I spent most of it in bed watching TV in efforts of of letting my arm heal.  It was feeling pretty good until I started cooking dinner...I wasn't even cooking a feast, but it was too much and by the end of the night I was hurting pretty bad.

It felt better this morning, but still not 100%.  I spent the day at my daughter's school.  I love spending time with the kids and helping out the teachers too.  I found out today that parents are not to play with the kids during recess.  This made me, and quite a few of the kids, quite sad.  I will continue to help in the classroom for the sake of my daughter and her teacher, but I definitely don't feel as connected or comfortable as I have for the past three years.  Not bueno!

It is almost 6pm and I have reached 79% on my ActiveLink...I should be able to get pretty close to 100% by the end of the night.  Last night I made it to 89% and earned 2pp.

Today has been a good eating day.  I am going to make dinner shortly, and feel like I don't need to eat everything in sight.  I pre-planned today's eats last night to include breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks at my daughter's school.  I left 7pp unassigned because I knew I was going to be going to Wal-Mart with the kids right after school and we would all need a snack.  I had a Diet Coke, an ice cream cone, and 1/2 of a small fry...exactly 7pp.  Because I pre-planned dinner pp, I have just enough and know I will be able to end the day well.

One more day until weigh in...as of today the scale shows a loss of 2.5 pounds...hopefully it will go down even further by Saturday morning.  Since I used my weeklies over a few days, rather than blowing them all over the weekend, I did not see the normal gain on the scale come Monday.  That was discussed in last week's meeting and it made a difference for sure. 

Tomorrow will be busy, and I will do my best to finish the week off on a good note.

Days 33 & 34...Success!

Onto Day 35...

Day 32...Hmmm...

Today seemed like a very long day.  After I dropped the kids off at school I spent a good hour and a half going through the fridge, freezers, and pantry...taking stock and trying to make meals out of what we have on hand.  I made up 9 meals, which shouldn't be so difficult but considering it is rare that all 6 of us eat the same thing...I have to get creative.

I made a small grocery list to fill in the gaps.  I ended up spending about $35 and all I am missing is grapes.  They are on sale and I will be on the other side of town tomorrow so I will pick them up then.

Tonight I made garlic bread pizzas.  We had Garlic Texas Toast in the freezer so I cut each slice in half lengthwise, grilled each side on my pancake griddle, then topped them with tomato sauce, deli ham, mushrooms, turkey pepperoni, bacon bits, and cheese.  Once topped I popped them into the oven to heat through and melt the cheese.  They turned out really good.  My mom, kids, and I liked them.  I am not sure about my dad because I did not hang around for his reaction.  I figured my husband would not like them and he figured the same, but to our surprise he did.  I had already made him something else for dinner and there were not enough pizzas, but now I have another meal that I can cook the same thing for everyone...yeah!

I did well eating today.  I did have 1 too many slices of pizza, an extra cookie, and 1 cup of nonfat milk, but I decided I really wanted them and it is better for me to eat over a little than avoid what I really want and eat 10 other things instead.  I feel satisfied...not stuffed...and not guilty for eating a bit over my dailies.  Being perfect on WW is not my goal...learning from my mistakes, learning when it is ok to have a little extra, and learning how to stop eating are some of my WW goals.  I figure if I am too restrictive and don't enjoy the journey than I might end up having to redo it again later.

It is almost 7pm and I have only earned 1pp and reached 77% on my ActiveLink.  I did take a short walk today while my mom was at the chiropractor.  My foot still hurts to put my shoes on and my arm is still bothering me.  I have never dreaded exercise, but I never imagined I would miss it so much either!  My daughter and I did do about 30 minutes of Richard Simmons last night.  Most of the movements require your arms...I could hardly move mine without pain last night so I just did the leg portion...not the same as a full body workout but at least I was moving!

Not sure if I will make it to 100% tonight, but either way I will consider today a success.

Onto Day 33...

Day 31...Frustration...

I am frustrated...with myself and with my body. 

I got up this morning with a genius idea to cover my blister in the back of my ankle so I could go for a walk since my arm still hurts ridiculously.  I put my shoes on and was limping by the time we were out the door.  I know limping a three mile walk is going to do nothing but cause me different pain.

Yesterday's bike ride felt good at the time, but know I think I may have done more damage to my arm as now the pain radiates from my shoulder blade to my elbow.

I came back home this morning after dropping off the kids and crawled back in bed.  It seems like I take one step forward only to take two back.

This afternoon I am going to try and get some activity in with my daughter.  We are going to "Party Off the Pounds" with a Richard Simmons DVD...minus the shoes and arm movements.  It is 4pm and I haven't even made it to 50% on my ActiveLink.  I feel like a failure, epecially when I want to exercise and can't, or shouldn't, so my injuries can heal.

My eating was ok today, not great, but ok considering.  By the time I have dinner, I will use the rest of my weeklies.  I am still tracking every bite.

I am so ready for something fabulous to happen.  Sometimes it feels like we have more bad than good and I really think in life there should be more of a balance.

Hoping tomorrow is a better day...

Onto Day 32...

Day 30...Success!

Last night my hubby was changing the brakes on his truck and did not finish until 9:30pm.  I was waiting up for him and got a bit hungry.  I had some string cheese & grapes...that was good. 

Then when I was heating up his dinner...pasta with meat sauce...I decided I needed some.  Then I decided I needed a piece of toast with butter.  I tracked every bite and ended up using a total of 11pp.  I rarely eat at night, but sometimes get hungry if I stay up too late and have eaten dinner early.  I do much better on the nights when everyone eats at the same time...unfortunetely that is rare.  I did however do well when I served up my dad's dinner and his ice cream for dessert.  I did not even have one bite...success. 

Was it worth it?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  Did I feel guilty or out of control?  No.  I tracked it and moved on and that will be the key to my success.

Today was a good day.  I rode my bike...my hubby is so fantastic.  He didn't want to ride with me but did take my bike to the bike trail, unloaded it, come back for me, and reloaded it.

My daughter and I spent most of the day working on her Biome Project for school...she did an amazing job!

We had some snacks throughout the day, and I tracked every bite.  I used 12 more weeklies and have 14 left for the week.

I earned 6pp and reached 129% through my ActiveLink.

Day 30...Success!

Onto Day 31...